Silent does't mean i have Nothing to Say

The night is bright, the moon is not full, but with a starlit sky, it was a perfect night. I was thinking as time transformed, which changes people in this world, and at the same time, we don't know what gonna happen at the next moment.

But, the life is still all about making choices every moment...and  i have own choices..

I have mine reasons for the every choices i make and go through..

It mine choices and decisions, please don't simply judge mine choice from your view of point as you don't know me .

and please, dun simply judge me as you like ~

I believed that everyone have their own perspective. So,i will only will rely upon myself because i have my right to color my life.

i dun care about how you judged me as you are not the one who really know me.

I will only ignore and neglected it .

I hate myself for don't know how too show the fake smile to others,

I hate myself for don't know how to hide the real feeling,

I hate myself for not being well social with others,

I hate myself for won't hide the tears that won't stop

I hate myself why i have to consider so much..

Just want to say, sometimes, being silent doesn't mean i have nothing to said. It just feel that there isn't anyone will listen and understand if i said it out.

It was no point and meaningless to mention anything if there isn't anyone will care and listen about it.

Life will just passed, u may choose to watch the time passed by, watch the changes of people and world which around you, watch the sun rise and sunset , and wait it to rise again..

And the life is, it still turning at the dark space no matter u are standing at the origin or run faster than others.

There is not a big deal .

Sometimes, i just want to silent, and it doesn't i have nothing to say .

I believe in do all things in love, keep ♥ in our heart.

                                                             Brave in Life :)

Dream and 4 digits number

My hp lost about 2 weeks ady.

Maybe the god wants to subsidized me to buy a new hand phone~

God, do u know it ? and want to help me also? want to give me some tips to won d money ? 

u had given me two chance in these 2 weeks in my dream.

but i am useless because i alway forgot something which important. 

It was a special dream for me.....

In the dream,  me and my father knew a gal ( she was pretty and was a modern malay).

 She went back my home and we treat her as a guests.

We are sitting at my living room. and she said she want to go toilet...

After she went out from toilet, she call her mother to tell her that the exactly location of my house's kitchen, toilet and other places~

I was feel weird at tat time why she and her mother want to know those things and the most terrible thing was after she hand up the phone, she said her mother ask where we put our KNIFE ~!!!!

wat the meaning and wonder why she ask this kind of thing ?!!! i was so nervous s at tat time and i dun noe where my father.  She went to our kitchen and took out the knife. 

I was just few steps from her. She said : " i wish to try the knife ."

The first sense come to my mind was RUN AWAY~ everything and feeling were so real.

I run to my staircase but she manage to catch me and she use the knife to stab into my heart, it my heart ! Exactly, it was so real !!

Wat was the feeling of my heart while stabbed by knife ?? it pain and hurt indeed, the feeling was so REAL ~ i can feel that i will die if my heart was boomed at that time...

While the knife was stabbed into my heart, i was helpless and looking up, the ceiling .. The miracle happened,  i saw the 4 digits at the ceiling, it was very similar with my hp number ( the knife still in my heart)..And i had a strong sense to this incident and keep to tell myself to remember and dun forget this number in my dream !!!! and lastly, my father appears and the dream appears also. 

lastly, i woke up..

i am remembered the dream but the most important 4 digits were vague after i woke up. i only can remember the last two number were 88. After that, i typed the msg to ask my father to buy 4D because of such nervous and horror dream. Initially, i wrote 4588 and 5488, i din send it out at tat time.  I am confused and i listed down the number on my book before i send the msg. and I add 1 more number. 

5488

4588

6488

Lastly, i was deleted the 4588, add the 6488 into the msg...

i am suddenly think back the number and i checked online just now. 

Da Ma Cai FIRST prize was 8854 !!!! it was exactly number from the backward. 

It was the number which i deleted !

I  was so unfortunately ...

It really unbelievable..

does't it really not belong to me?

Haha~ story come to the end ~

单身节 vs 情人节

真特别,

老天真的送了我一个单身节大礼~

超可爱,美丽的 lg ice-cream  在 14.2.2011 正式宣布下落不明啦~

                                                                White color ice cream :)

                                                              My Love ^^

与这ice-cream 的故事是这样开始的,

记得几年前当时电话坏了,没什么心情换电话,因为都觉得一直换电话是件很奢侈的事,

hp is our liability just like car~

所以呢,当时就列出了几个criterias,  没过几天,他就找到了这理想电话介绍给我.

所以终于在5.1.2009 那天把它带回家。

不知道为什么,对这电话有一种特别的感情,用它的时候超觉得它很适合我，很爱它  :)

用了两年,它竟然还好好的~

不过在12.2.2011 9pm ，

好象已经注定的一样，它注定被遗失，很巧妙的~~~

它真的被遗失了..

不过幸好,那个我很爱的号码,在情人节这天被我也回来了..

真无奈,在这节日还要特地去M.Valley 申请回号码,

不过,最好变成了与几个朋友在M.Valley 庆祝single day，看电影 ~

去看情侣拍拖~感觉还不错下下，没有比我想象的糟糕，哈哈..

一直以为可以用到大学毕业的电话不见了,就像一直以为能够和你牵着手走到永远的心情一样,

好像冥冥中已经注定了会失去一样，

就这样，突然间,不属于自己了..

时间过好快,快要一年了,会想问,你过得好吗?

应该不错吧~

如果当时什么都没发生,现在的我们会是怎样?

还记得第一次的情人节,我是在national service (NS)度过 ,

当时的我们也只能用电话联络,真可爱,很温馨,哈哈..

在这几年里,要衷心感谢他们一家人都对我很好,

尤其是他的妈妈的关心,

我还是很尊敬的她...

如今,

当他做了觉得对的选择时,我只能祝福他真的对了.

如今,

最熟悉的陌生人,

不能再与你同行,

听说，握了3年的手的是恋情，

握了5年的手才算是爱情，

所以，你是恋情吗？

那么，

就让这份恋情被带走的那一天,

不愿我们再遇见,

不愿它再被提起,

那最真实的梦幻,

就让它,

成为我们的纪念,

只有我知道,我的世界,曾经有过你的脸..

我们注定成为最熟悉的陌生人..

祝愿你,一切都顺利,

祝愿你,幸福快乐到永远 :)

                                                          
                                                    







 P/s: To the people who took mine hp accidentally  , plz treasure and love it

Happy Belated Birthday 10 January ^^

January is a busy month for me....That the reason why i update the blog during CNY, haha

it was busier for outing, shopping,entertainment with friends and so on coz we just open school, we have a lots of free time to enjoy before fight the war, haha.

Of course, we also spend a lot of money during this month.

10 January, is my birthday~ They said 21st is a big birthday for everyone,but for me, birthday bring the same meaning every year, no matter we 18, 19, 20 or 21~

I want to thank mine chat buddy for gift me a secret recipe Raspberry Cheese Cake, it was mine 2nd time to have it, it was totally difference feeling compare with the last year Raspberry Cheese Cake.

Finally, i went to Sunway to ice skating with my dearest freinds.wahaha.. It was mine first time to skate. Actually I am wonder we went to ice skate or ice walk.I were fall down twice during ice skate, it was totally pain, but i am enjoyed, wahaha. Thank for my friend who accompany me to spend money and ice skating even though u all dun noe how to ice skating.

After that, we went to eat steamboat instead of go full house~ wohooo.. I love steamboat and buffet last time, but now, steamboat is one of the reason that cause me become fat !So,i want to avoid it now.

I had meet alots of friends who same birthday with me since primary school, secondary school and University life as well. Is it 10 January is a very lucky day? haha 

Ah Fattt, who same birthday with me too. We know each other since mine first year, but me, Boon Kar and him become closer friend after QZH 5.We had pillow talk,goes for night market, eating together before. At first, we plan to go Tao buffet for the celebration. I want to try Tao because i heard that Tao was tasty than Jogoya~ But, the plan failed. We went to steamboat at Subang again with Ah fatt' friends and Boon Kar . They all are nice, sweet friends and i am very happy to meet and noe them. During that 2 hours, they said i came from Mars because of my speaking speed, they din manage to catch what i talking about. What ?!!! But i was not the first time ady, some of mine friends also faced this problem during chit chat with me. Wish that it wont happen again next time la~

Next,it was a nice memories with Xiao Ken them.She was my college senior and we were same birthday too ^^. Because of cc daddy, GKC supervisor, yee hoong and bee bee them, i had  snow flake at Subang Jaya. It was a tasty and difference snow flake.I am enjoyed After that, we had cake in front of Sunway Pyramid Field. It was so romantic, special and nice experience to celebrate birthday. haha

And,I want to thank my roomate, Sprite ~ She treat me to eat ViVo pizza yieh~
I had a cheese rice, it was tasty and can compare with Kimgary.

It was a difference and memorable 21st birthday for me,and i will remembered always in my life because It was once in my life.

Thank you my friends sincerely and ♥ it very much ^^


I wish all my wishes will come true and

Happy always ^^ 

                                  Ice Skating

 

                          ♥ this pic the most. Steamboat at Subang!

                                   Snow Flake with milk :)

                                       Snow flake

                                 thinking? dreaming ?haha

                                   Me and Xiao Ken ^^

                                   Nice pic ^^

                                 Raspberry Cheese Cake

                                     21 years old Gold Key

                                              Gold Key 2

                                           SK Jewellery Necklace :)

                                           Pull and Bear shirt ^^

新年快乐

2010 年过去了，回首这一年，

发生了很多事，许多事都变了，

平平凡凡，有悲伤，有快乐得度过每一天，

但我却好像在原地踏步，不肯向前，

为自己设下的梦因为自己在原地踏步还没实现到，

机会曾经在我面前,但错过了,

但愿那个机会再来时,不再退缩,

但愿我能带着这个梦在这一年起飞,

心想, 它还会远吗？

他们说，

那不就是人生吗？

有舍，才有得。

2011年 的第一天~

要开心, 所谓,

新的一年，新的开始，wuhoo~

心血来潮，用photoshop 做了张简单的我们一家的日历。。

虽然它很普通，但却有纪念价值~

一个女生，长大了，去外面看世界了，带着梦想去旅行，

跌倒了，自己学会站起来，因为她有家人，

但又很少回来这从小到大的家，

但希望这日历能成为一个纪念他们的信物。。

日历差不多要大功告成了，等下拿去print 然后再laminate 就可以了的说 :)

一个人走得再远，也应该在适合的时候回头看看那个最初的自己。

今天，一个朋友对我说，船到桥头自然直，桥不直的话就跳下去游泳，总有雨过天晴的一天

这句话很有意思。

所有的人，事，物，都会过去，黑夜来了，黎明还会远吗？

我想不会~

新的一年，但愿我不会再 dai sai~

新的一年, 但愿我    ♥心想事成  ♥

新的一年, 但愿我   ♥ 万事如意  ♥

新的一年, 但愿所有的人身体健康，幸福快乐到永远。

2011,  我准备好了  I  am ready，你呢？

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║╔╗║╔╗║╔╣╔╩╗╔╝ ★ NEW YEAR ☆ 2011 新年快樂!!
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2011 CAlendEr ^^

FinAlly ~

Finally, QZH 5 came to the end and i came back sweet sweet home today.

In these 4 days 3 nights, i just slp for not more than 12 hours, it really tired and my panda become more obvious too, but what i gt from there are a lots of memories.

My team partner, capable Wen Chieng, she teaches me and we guided 14 secondary members together.

We are "YU NU JIAN FA"team.
Team member : Talented leader (Jason), nice PPS, talkative but clever d Yu Heng , brave d Akira, Kind d Ah Zi, Cutie Ah San, Leng leng Xiao Mei, silent and small size Xin Jing, Gentle Ah Qiang, cutie Ah Peng, friendly Ah Jun, Shy Ah Wen, and humor Ah Bao.

They are the best members in my heart . Since the first until the last day, i saw them grown up.

But unfortunately, Xin Jing do not manage to go through with us until the end of the camp, she was sick and decided went home on the 3rd days.

She was a very small size and silent girl among of 14 members. Maybe i do not done very well in the aspect to communicate and guide her, we tried to ask her to share with her during the sharing section, we tried to ask her opinion and concern her so that she able to talk more, but it not work ~

I tot that the matter will be improved s bit after we concerned her, but it turn worse at finally. It really very sad  in this matter.

But, in this 4 days, Me and chieng were guided the members  go through the station games together, we eat together, we go Lin Lian Yu Mu Yuan together, we sing songs at bus together, we attend the Chinese, self improvement courses, me and Chieng wake up u all if u all fall slp, we dance together, we share together during sharing section, and last but not least, we cried together at the last day.

I saw they were cooperate and encouraged each other to complete every tasks that we gave them. I saw they were grown up and learned every days. This is what we want to give for the people who participate QZH. We hope that they know we QZH just like a palette and  they are the only one who to color their daily life.We hope that they will apply the knowledge that they learned at here in their school and life as well.

I really feel gratify and pleased  when i saw them learnt somethings during this few days and lastly, i am proud for them. :)

                                                     Yu Nu Jian Fa Team ^^

                                                         Say Cheese  ^^                

                                                     You are the best :)

                                                   At Lin Lian Yu Mu Yuan

SaM3 As YoU

Time Passed, I had Joined QZH 5 around 1 week already. But we still have 1 more week to go on and i hope that the camp will run smoothly because all of us had put on a lot of efforts to go through it.

From here, i  learned a song which name "Same as You"and feel that  it really is a meaningful song.

From here, it really was a totally difference life and I  knew a lots of friends who come from difference Faculty and get to know each other.

 We just like a big family, we eat together, we sleep together, we shared together and we had fun together everyday ^^

We also eat a lot of food and popular " Tang Shui" at Sentosa Sesyen 17 this few days.

 It is Dong Zhi Festival tomorrow, again, din manage to go back home for celebrate and eat traditional Tang Yuan and "Mua Chi" at home as well. T.T

But I am anticipating for the Dong Zhi tmr because I knew that there was a stall which sell Tang Yuan at Sentosa Sesyen 17 . Hope that i am able to eat Tang Yuan tmr ^^

Happy Dong Zhi festival to me and u all :)

 QZH 5 with Mr Mo Tai Xi and Mr Lu Ting Yu during visit Mr Lin Lian Yu public memorial ceremony.

                              We are proud because of u  fight for Chinese,
                             so that we able to speak and learn Mandarin at Malaysia now.
                               Ur spirit will stay with us long live .
            
                                    

* Excited and grateful i had shaked hand with Mr. Mo Tai Xi 

Sam3 As yoU

谁在最需要的时候轻轻拍着我肩膀
谁在最快乐的时候愿意和我分享
日子那么长我在你身旁
见证你成长让我感到充满力量
谁能忘记过去一路走来陪你受的伤
谁能预料未来茫茫漫长你在何方
笑容在脸上和你一样
大声唱为自己鼓掌

我和你一样一样的坚强
一样的全力以赴追逐我的梦想
哪怕会受伤哪怕有风浪
风雨之后才会有迷人芬芳

我和你一样一样的善良
一样为需要的人打造一个天堂
歌声是翅膀唱出了希望
所有的付出只因爱的力量
和你一样

谁在最需要的时候轻轻拍着我肩膀
谁在最快乐的时候愿意和我分享
日子那么长我在你身旁
见证你成长让我感到充满力量
谁能忘记过去一路走来陪你受的伤
谁能预料未来茫茫漫长你在何方
笑容在脸上和你一样
大声唱为自己鼓掌

我和你一样一样的坚强
一样的全力以赴追逐我的梦想
哪怕会受伤哪怕有风浪
风雨之后才会有迷人芬芳

我和你一样一样的善良
一样为需要的人打造一个天堂
歌声是翅膀唱出了希望
所有的付出只因爱的力量

我们都一样一样的坚强
一样的青春焕发金黄色的光芒
哪怕会受伤哪怕有风浪
风雨之后才会有彩色阳光

我们都一样一样的善良
一样为需要的人打造一个天堂
歌声是翅膀唱出了希望
所有的付出只因爱的力量
和你一样
我们都一样

谁在最需要的时候轻轻拍着我肩膀
谁在最快乐的时候愿意和我分享
日子那么长我在你身旁
见证你成长
永远为你鼓掌
by

李宇春